Sunday, August 31, 2003
And so my journey begins. I had to go to the Dr. the other day. I stepped on the scale and it said 266 pounds. I couldn't believe it. I thought I weighed 250. Not that 250 was that much better...but still. I knew that day I hadto change my habits.
I haven't always been overweight. I was just a tad chubby during my early teen years but by the time I was 16 I was tiny. I weighed about 125 lbs. When I was 17, I met my future husband. I remember stepping on the scale that summer I met him and I weighed 127 lbs. I thought I was huge. Little did I know...that would soon be huge.
We were married in 1995. During our first few years on being married I did put on some weight. In 1997 I became pregnant with our first child and I weighed about 165 lbs. I still thought I was huge then...oh to be 165 lbs. again....
In April of 1998 our daughter was born. I weighed 225 lbs. at my last Dr's appointment during my pregnancy. I dropped a few pounds quickly but that was it. And I wound up gaining every bit that I had lost back. In late 1999 I decided it was time for a change. In 4 months I managed to lose about 45 lbs. and I got down to 180 lbs. I was on a low cal/fat diet and I worked out almost everyday. I felt GREAT! But somehow, someway I got off track. Early 2000 was the last time I had been under 200 lbs.
In Feb. 2000 we decided it was time to start trying for another baby. I am really happy I managed to lose some weight before trying to get pregnant. It wasn't a lot but I am sure it helped. In November 2000 our son arrived and I honestly have no idea what I weighed around the time he was born. I am guessing I was somewhere around 240. I tried several diets after having him but I never stuck to anything for more than 2 weeks. Lack of willpower I guess. A few months after he was born I remember just "accepting" the fact that I was overweight. For awhile I didn't think too much about dieting...
Our third baby arrived in February 2003. When I was pregnant with him I actually had a NORMAL weight gain during pregnancy! That was surprising since I constantly ate. I did get down to around 250 lbs. after having him but the weight has kept coming back.
I was eating like I have never eaten before. I love potato skins smothered with cheese and sour cream. I love plain double cheeseburgers from McDonalds with a super size fries on the side and a big Coke. I was drowning practically everything I ate in cheese or butter or mayonaise. I was eating when I was stressed, happy, sad, bored...you name it. Food was my comfort for everything.
It's really hard to go from being thin to very overweight. I know how differently I used to be treated when I was thin. People seemed so much nicer. No one stared at the contents of my grocery cart like they do now. It's so embarrasing running into people I used to go to school with who haven't seen me in years. I ran into an old friend a couple of months ago and she felt my tummy and asked me how far along I was...I wasn't even pregnant at the time. That wasn't the first time that happened either. And on the same day I went to the Dr. to see that 266 lbs.glaring at me I realized I was having a hard time fitting into the chair in the waiting room.
I came home from that appointment and later that night told my husband that I am going to finally do it this time. I knew that if I didn't make a change soon I would regret it someday. I am tired of having no energy. I am tired of never being able to play with my kids the way they deserve to be played with. I am tired of running out of breath from climbing the steps. I have a wonderful husband who is constantly telling me I am beautiful and he loves me just the way I am. But I know good and well that I didn't weigh 266 lbs. when he met me...and I know deep down inside (although he would never admit it) that he feels just a tad bit embarrased when I visit him at his job.
So I am doing it now and nothing will stop me. I mean nothing!!! Three days have passed (and 2 lbs are GONE) and I feel incredible and I knowI cando this!!
I haven't always been overweight. I was just a tad chubby during my early teen years but by the time I was 16 I was tiny. I weighed about 125 lbs. When I was 17, I met my future husband. I remember stepping on the scale that summer I met him and I weighed 127 lbs. I thought I was huge. Little did I know...that would soon be huge.
We were married in 1995. During our first few years on being married I did put on some weight. In 1997 I became pregnant with our first child and I weighed about 165 lbs. I still thought I was huge then...oh to be 165 lbs. again....
In April of 1998 our daughter was born. I weighed 225 lbs. at my last Dr's appointment during my pregnancy. I dropped a few pounds quickly but that was it. And I wound up gaining every bit that I had lost back. In late 1999 I decided it was time for a change. In 4 months I managed to lose about 45 lbs. and I got down to 180 lbs. I was on a low cal/fat diet and I worked out almost everyday. I felt GREAT! But somehow, someway I got off track. Early 2000 was the last time I had been under 200 lbs.
In Feb. 2000 we decided it was time to start trying for another baby. I am really happy I managed to lose some weight before trying to get pregnant. It wasn't a lot but I am sure it helped. In November 2000 our son arrived and I honestly have no idea what I weighed around the time he was born. I am guessing I was somewhere around 240. I tried several diets after having him but I never stuck to anything for more than 2 weeks. Lack of willpower I guess. A few months after he was born I remember just "accepting" the fact that I was overweight. For awhile I didn't think too much about dieting...
Our third baby arrived in February 2003. When I was pregnant with him I actually had a NORMAL weight gain during pregnancy! That was surprising since I constantly ate. I did get down to around 250 lbs. after having him but the weight has kept coming back.
I was eating like I have never eaten before. I love potato skins smothered with cheese and sour cream. I love plain double cheeseburgers from McDonalds with a super size fries on the side and a big Coke. I was drowning practically everything I ate in cheese or butter or mayonaise. I was eating when I was stressed, happy, sad, bored...you name it. Food was my comfort for everything.
It's really hard to go from being thin to very overweight. I know how differently I used to be treated when I was thin. People seemed so much nicer. No one stared at the contents of my grocery cart like they do now. It's so embarrasing running into people I used to go to school with who haven't seen me in years. I ran into an old friend a couple of months ago and she felt my tummy and asked me how far along I was...I wasn't even pregnant at the time. That wasn't the first time that happened either. And on the same day I went to the Dr. to see that 266 lbs.glaring at me I realized I was having a hard time fitting into the chair in the waiting room.
I came home from that appointment and later that night told my husband that I am going to finally do it this time. I knew that if I didn't make a change soon I would regret it someday. I am tired of having no energy. I am tired of never being able to play with my kids the way they deserve to be played with. I am tired of running out of breath from climbing the steps. I have a wonderful husband who is constantly telling me I am beautiful and he loves me just the way I am. But I know good and well that I didn't weigh 266 lbs. when he met me...and I know deep down inside (although he would never admit it) that he feels just a tad bit embarrased when I visit him at his job.
So I am doing it now and nothing will stop me. I mean nothing!!! Three days have passed (and 2 lbs are GONE) and I feel incredible and I knowI cando this!!
